Where have I been? Well, I've been literally sitting at home trying to keep this baby in. While this pregnancy in general has been physically very difficult, the last 2 weeks have been hard, and last week was even worse. On Monday, I had to start timing contractions because they are coming often enough I actually have to pay attention. I'm only 30ish weeks along and the best part was Mike was out of town all last week. As long as I don't get up, they keep to 1-2 an hour during the day and go to 3-4 at night. If I'm up and moving at all they get much worse. We are officially in survival mode. Do you know how hard it is to sit with 3 small children running amuck and a household to run?!?!?!?!?!? I didn't realize just how OCD I was until this week. This week has been challenging to say the least. I lay in bed, I sit on the floor to play with kids more, and I sit on the couch or my playroom chair even more and watch the mess expand exponentially. It's quite adventurous really. My kids have been ANGELS considering the circumstances! We have implemented lots of extra routines that have helped, but there is no Mom going around constantly picking up the extra things. My house is only somewhat destroyed, and no one has died yet. We are good. :) When Mike is in town, he's picking up lots of slack. He met me at Costco for his lunch break before he left last week to get kids out of the car, push the cart around, load the kids and stuff into the car. When he's out of town, we are getting pretty creative. This last week with Mike gone, each night I bribed the kids with ice cream to pick up the whole house since I literally can't do any of it! They thought it was awesome they got ice cream 4 days in a row, and I didn't even care because I found myself much grumpier and snappier than necessary just because of the mess. I'm much nicer sitting if I'm not staring at that one piece of garbage that just needs to get thrown away or a few stray legos hanging out. I really didn't think those things bothered me. It's one thing when I'm choosing not to do it, it's a completely different scenario when I CAN'T! SO frustrating!
I usually love just sitting in my playroom with my kids around playing. Or all of us sitting in my one rocking chair together to read a story, but this week I found myself saying, "Stop touching me" "You're breathing on me," "Scoot over" "Go play" and so many other phrases that are not regulars for me. I'm determining it's attributed to the fact I'm bored, I'm uncomfortable, my body is DYING for a good workout, or even just a walk I think, and I'm tired of "easy" food. Luckily we are stocked up on fruits and veggies, but there are still lots of things Isabelle isn't big enough to prepare yet. She can pull out baby carrots, wash grapes, or peel an orange, but she can't exactly prepare cucumbers or cantaloupe yet. A couple of nights friends showed up with food for dinner which was SO good to have real food! But one night goldfish, carrots, cheese, and blueberries counted for dinner. Sure enough, they were all alive in the morning. :)
I'm kind of a cereal snob for various reasons I won't get into now, but we don't eat it much. I told the kids to grab cereal for the 3rd morning in a row and Isabelle about had a cow. "MOM! That's not healthy! We can't have cereal 2 days in a row, for sure not 3!" To which I explained what the term "Survival Mode" means. "We are making sure nobody dies here. No one will die by eating cereal 3 days in a row. Eat it, or get something you can fix yourself."
I've had more time to sit and watch my kids play and their personalities. On that note, it's been a great week. They are so funny to just sit and watch. Luke's vocabulary is really growing like crazy. He LOVES basketball and cars. And will now sit and watch a little tv! Which has been a huge blessing! He likes Mickey Mouse Clubhouse or Backyardigans. He loves to dance to all the music. Michael, when you can tear him away from a tablet or the tv, he loves to play baseball and soccer and cars, but has a short attention span for anything that doesn't plug in. Isabelle is just a mom all the time if not to her brothers, to her dolls. She still just loves to mother everyone around her, which has helped me a ton. Together all 3 love to read, dance to the music on our keyboard, and will play with the GeoTrax forever.
This is just the beginning (hopefully) of some long weeks. I hope I can not get discouraged or overwhelmed and stay optimistic that another day sitting is another day of baking for baby. I'm so grateful for help from neighbors, friends, our ward, and Mike.